It’s amazing what kind of impact the burdens that we carry have on our well being.
Fortunately, God’s grace and freedom is even more amazing.
As of July 8, I no longer have a crooked back.
They say having a crooked back more often than not has to do with carrying heavy burdens.
For myself, a lot of it had to do with the different expectations that I had pushed on myself - some from others, some from myself, as well as unforgiveness towards different people in my life. For the sake of privacy, I will keep it vague. It was important for me not only to release those expectations, but also to forgive the people that put those things on me.
Growing up I was constantly made aware of what I was not. Not smart enough. Not fast enough. Not thin enough, not attractive enough, not good enough, etc. This led me to fear myself, because I had an understanding that I was not what people wanted. I began to fear failure in these different areas. Now the thing about fear, is that it can become a force that controls the way we behave. I was no different. Having fallen victim to fear, I was obsessed with doing everything in my power not to fail. This of course made it difficult to bear when I did fail, and so began a vicious cycle.
Fast forward. To release these burdens, it was necessary to identify where they originated from, and ask Jesus for the truth. For each thing I brought up, Jesus said “beauty for ashes” (which happens to be one of my favorite songs). It was the understanding that God made me the way I am, fearfully and wonderfully, and that His grace is more than sufficient for my areas of lack. It was quite liberating, to move from living based on what people said I was not, to living based on who God says I am.
In terms of unforgiveness, this too is a burden. Bitterness consumes the soul. I had a few issues with people that needed to be dealt with, after which I released the bitterness.
Following all this, the Chosen youth and leaders prayed for my back to be straightened. Let me tell you, it was quite liberating. His yoke really is easy, and the burden light.
-brock